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I am beginning a new knitting commission for a friend (I can't reveal it because she is gifting it to her boyfriend), and I decided to try a new yarn store. Normally I would try to buy yarn wholesale or from Knit Picks, but I felt like exploring the city a little bit. I drove about twenty minutes north to Eagle Rock to a quaint little family owned yarn shop that I had read about on Yahoo. It boasted fantastic reviews, and I was anxious to caress some perfect fibers and curl up in an armchair while thumbing through some pattern books. I love listening to yarn store sales people and frequently eavesdrop on the knitting circles' conversations. And I couldn't wait to get my hands on some decorative needles. I followed the directions perfectly and pulled up in front of the store -

CLOSED!

Completely cleaned out!

Empty.

I was pitifully disappointed. I came home, hopped on the net, and looked up their website. They stated that they were hoping to still have yarns available and would slowly revamp their website once they get over their sadness over the store closing.

No more knitting classes. No more community circles. No more pattern displays.

This news set me into a panic. I am hoping to own my own business one day. Hopefully one day soon. I am exploring different areas, expecting them to fuel whatever services I decide to provide. This blatant closure of this yarn store and the rest of America rapidly losing their jobs sent me into a tailspin.

SO for those of you who care-

I have been spending my time reevaluating my decision to permanently leave Alaska. This was going to be my last summer in Skagway, Alaska working as the Head Madam aka Tour Guide Manager at the Red Onion Saloon. But with the state of the world right now, I think it is unwise to walk away. I wanted to explore different paths, but now I wonder if I should stick with what I have and see where that takes me. I mean, I know I don't think I want to live in Skagway for the rest of my life because it doesn't offer me everything I want. But it does offer me the one thing I want the most right now - a wonderful job that I love more than any other job I've ever had.

I don't know if I feel this way only because I don't have a job right now, but I know that I don't want to be someone who is looking for random retail jobs. I want some stability. If these means continuing to thrive in Skagway and perhaps going to graduate school in the meantime, so be it. I just want to have some peace of mind.